The *Plan*

So it's pretty obvious that I have been struggling with losing weight and getting healthy. I've tried different strategies, and haven't had much success. I've started counting calories instead of doing Weight Watchers, and that has seemed to help. But, I went to a new doctor... one who seems interested in helping me get this weight off, unlike the previous doctor I was seeing... and we have come up with a plan. The plan includes

* prayer
* focusing on God
*1200 calories/day {yikes}
* a pill to help me get started {hopefully I won't be on that long}
* lots of water ... like 100ozs. lots
* lots of fruits and veggies
* lots of exercise with pasta and cheese {my two loves} an hour before I work out
* and finally.... no surgery!! I had been contemplating it, and my parents had been encouraging it, but the doc said no.way.

There ya have it... I go back to see her every 30 days, so that will help keep me accountable. I'm excited, and am looking forward to being successful. I have a doctor who is on my side, and who wants what is best for me. She said we will get through this together.... isn't that lovely?

Can't Wait

This week has sucked. Plain and simple. Sucked. But I only gained 2lbs. back of my 10, so that isn't sooo horrible. However, I'm back on track and ready.... cuz I found these....

Oh I can't wait to get skinny!

Progress

so.... i haven't been doing a good job at keeping track on here like i said i was going to; however, i have lost 10 pounds! i'm so so so excited. i didn't even do a wonderful job this week at tracking points, drinking all of my water, eating all my fruits/veggies, etc. i've just been eating in moderation, and it's really helping. i can get back on track with everything else this new week. i also stepped on a snowflake cookie cutter that my gorgeous little munchkin left in the middle of our bedroom floor, so my foot was cut open for most of the week. it was hard to walk around during school let alone try to get on the treadmill and bust it there.

i did have some accomplishments this week that i am proud of, too. yesterday, all 3 of my classes had a "coffee house" party at school. they each had to do a book report, and then had to present it. while the kids were presenting, everyone enjoyed hot chocolate, iced brownies, cinnamon rolls, donuts, more brownies, cupcakes, blueberry muffins, more cookies, and all other kinds of yummy stuff. i, however, kept myself under control. i did have a cinnamon roll, but it wasn't very big, and then i ate a donut. i went home last night and kept myself under control with dinner, too. usually i would have had a brownie, a cupcake, a cinnamon roll, a donut, rice krispy treats, and some hot chocolate. but, i didn't. which makes me proud. very proud.

next week will be better as far as everything else goes. i want to keep this going. it's been amazing hopping on the scale and seeing the numbers decrease every couple days. it's been an encouragement for sure. and, i'm looking forward to shopping in the regular women's department in the department stores instead of in the plus department. i'm lovvvviiiiiinnnnngggg it! and, i've been doing my devotions, which makes me have more confidence and encouragement while i am on this journey.

Randoms...

well, today wasn't as horrible as the last two days, but it wasn't great, either. i did the mcdonalds thing again for breakfast. my lunch was brought from home, and i had a total of 3 little cupcakes, not 6 or so. i also didn't drink any water, and had no fruits/veggies (for dinner i will).


so, my frustrations have led me to create a goal chart to put on the fridge every week. i have to check off what i did each day, and if i have all but 3 boxes checked by saturday, i get one treat sunday evening. not all weekend long.

here are some of my goals:

* drink 100ozs. of water every day
* eat 5 fruits/veggies a day
* keep track of WW online daily
* eat breakfast
* exercise at least 3xs per week
* no more fast food or fried food anymore at.all. none.
* stop "picking" at food then not counting it as points
* do devotions daily so i can feel God's force pushing me forward to my goals



if i follow this, i should be good. i did well for almost 2 weeks, hit a little setback, but i can't let that deter me from moving forward. i'm getting over it, and getting back on track tomorrow. my parents are coming in a month, i want them to see a difference in me when they come, and i want them to see a bigger difference when i go to their house for thanksgiving and then the same again for Christmas. i can do it. i know i can.

Suck-fest

the past two days have sucked.... really really sucked. yesterday i didn't eat my proper breakfast, but ate chocolate cupcakes instead (note, it was plural).... i ate like 5 cupcakes (they were the mini ones), but still... then i licked the icing off of another few. sick. yes, i know. i didn't drink any water or eat any vegetables or fruits. after work we went to wal-mart to get food for our fondue party, got the kiddo fried chicken strips, and i ate half of them. even worse. then to top it off, we had fondue for dinner.... cheese, cheese, cheese, wine, bread, hot oil, butter, chocolate, chocolate, pound cake.... i did have like 5 pieces of fruit with that, though. see... total suck-fest.

then, today i haven't had any water or fruits and veggies.... i had two apple pies from mcdonalds for breakfast, went to a native american pow-wow and had apache fried flat bread (well, half of it).... i also had a mcdouble and small fry with a sweet tea after the pow-wow. and to top it off i had two more cupcakes today.

these last two days have more than sucked. and i feel horribly guilty for it. i also can tell a difference in how i feel due to the fact that i have put fried/fatty food in to my body instead of fruits, veggies, lean protein, and water. i know i have to have some bad days to keep myself from going crazy, but two days in a row of horrible-ness is unacceptable. one meal wouldn't have been so bad... this was just crazy.

i also haven't had time to exercise yet, either. monday and tuesday i work until 7:30 so i can't do it then, either. my goal is to do it weds-friday at least next week. and, i'm getting back.on.track.tomorrow! no doubt!

:o)

I've done really well the last few days. This weekend, I didn't keep track of my points, didn't eat enough fruits/veggies, and didn't drink my water... and I felt extremely guilty. Like, majorly guilty. I think that is a super good thing. I also got on the scale, and I've lost 7lbs. Wooo Hooo! I had an even better day today by eating all of my fruits/veggies already, and having all of my water gone.... let's hope I keep it up! :o) I'm overflowing with joy and excitement. I really think this could be the time where I get down to business and keep going. I really do!

Last 2 Days

My last couple days have been really good. I've kept my points, and have used just a few of the extra weekly allowance. I can see that I am making better choices, and being more conscientous about what goes in my mouth. Next week, I want to drink more water, and want to start exercising again. This weekend will prove to be interesting, also, because I usually eat fast food on the weekend days that I have to work. But, I am on a roll, and I don't want to ruin it. I have also completely and totally ruled out having surgery unless I absolutely cannot do it by myself. I want to prove to myself that I can do this. I also want to show myself that I have enough faith in God to know that He will see me through this journey, and will help me be successful.

Now or Never

i'm starting over again. january has come and gone, and a new january is about to be upon us. i'm as frustrated as i think i can possibly be, but i need to pick up my shattered pride and confidence, and get back on track. i'm going to start blogging every single day about what i eat, my exercise, if i drank all of my water, and ate all of my fruits/veggies.... even if it kills me. if i'm not accountable to any readers, at least i am accountable to myself by writing, and actually seeing how i have done throughout the day. i have also had a conversation with my husband that if i don't have 50lbs. gone by december (with really trying my butt off, and putting in a full effort.... not just a half kind of job, i have to actually make an effort) then i am going to go see a doctor about doing something out of my own power to help me. so, it's now or never, do or die. i am going to do this one way or another. i would like to do it by myself, but it's nice to know i have other options to help me if need be. we'll see how it goes. a lot of prayer is being said on my end, and hopefully my family's end, too, about me being successful in this endeavor. i don't want my daughter to grow up and have the same issues i do, so i need to do this because she's going to start understanding things in the next year or so about mommy's eating and exercise habits.